remember what I said? my eyes were closed next to you, and in the letter I sent I said I kissed the sea until it reached you. Bu I no longer say your name to them, or whisper it in the secret quiet of my room. I no longer picture myself on the handlebars of your bike. I say your fading but instead I feel your mark on me returning. I told kevin, when I am at peace with you, you stumble back in, when your voice has been forgotten and your hands are no longer pined for…. when I am content…. You pull me back. And I want desperately to be free.
I want to run hot water all over you and I want to watch the colors of you run. I want to forget, I want to move on. I feel tormented. I feel like I could be hurting by this, but Im doing it to forget. I know I know it is a crime but I dont know what else to do. bluuuuh yo, I dunno
